one + one = three

I have been very hesitant to post this mainly because I know how touchy of a subject babies can be. I have friends that have been trying for a long time to have a baby and friends that have lost babies. I also know these same friends celebrate our pregnancy. There is worthy emotion wrapped up in these little lives that God gives us. I can't believe how quickly I have fallen in love with this babe only to realize that though he or she has been entrusted to us, he or she is not actually ours. We will try our hardest to hold this little life with an open hand and pray unceasingly for God's will. We will hope for salvation and a life full of love.

I found out I was pregnant when Chris was away on tour and I had to wait two whole weeks before I got to see him and tell him of our good news. I wrapped a pair of baby green converse and the pregnancy test and waited until we could be alone. Finding moments to be alone when you are traveling with seven guys in a 15 passenger van are elusive at best. Chris opened the box and smiled the sweetest smile I have ever seen. It was definitely worth the wait to tell him in person.

We are due December 27th. I am a little over 14 weeks currently. We aren't finding out the gender. Chris is going to be the sweetest dad in the whole wide world. I am most afraid of the season of sleep deprivation that will quickly ensue once Baby P makes its grand debut. Words cannot describe the depths of love, excitement and gratitude I feel for this little soul being knit together in my womb. God is the giver and take of life. I so wish my dad could be here to hold his grand babies but know He is beholding much greater eternal things.

Just so grateful to our gracious God and King.